At 183 Pounds, I’m the Fattest I’ve Ever Been

Pink Abstract Art Painting Brigandi's Barber Shop

I'm fat. I never really realized I was a fat person until I saw a picture that my fiance took of me on Saturday. I was on my way to drop off my latest abstract painting to Brigandi's Barbering Company located in Audubon, New Jersey. Ariel, the owner of Brigandi's and someone I've unbelievably known … Continue reading At 183 Pounds, I’m the Fattest I’ve Ever Been

Poetry Hour: The Space Between

The Space Between Courtney Dercqu 2

If I could impress upon you anything, with sincerity or not, it’d be my wish for you to touch me in my sweetest place Oh, how I hope you don’t resist! It’s the space between my breasts the space that’s hard and filled with bone the space between where my heart is its own. Oh, … Continue reading Poetry Hour: The Space Between

I Ghosted Someone And This Is Why I Don’t Regret It

For a brief three-month window, I “dated” this dude named Craig. His name’s not really Craig, but I can only assume this is a really Craig-like thing to do. Attention: To anyone reading this named Craig, don’t be this guy, OK? Craig is what Vince Vaughn would probably refer to as a stage five clinger. … Continue reading I Ghosted Someone And This Is Why I Don’t Regret It

I Stayed In A Loveless Relationship To Prove Love Had Meaning

Love is a fickle bitch. It’s so confusing. It can be so overwhelming that it turns people into love-crazed beings who will do literally anything for the sake of adrenaline coursing through their veins. And, love can also be something that loses its meaning… after weeks, months and even years. To read more, please check out … Continue reading I Stayed In A Loveless Relationship To Prove Love Had Meaning

I Was a Featured Writer in a Book By Thought Catalog

Forever Essays About Love, Soulmates and Finding Your Forever Person

"You've found love, and light and life will carry on like it never had before this moment, before love, before you, before them, before everything."             You can read and purchase Thought Catalog's book, "Forever: Essays About Soulmates, Love, and Finding Your Forever Person" here. My Moment in the Sun … Continue reading I Was a Featured Writer in a Book By Thought Catalog

I Lost My Mother, But I’m Finding Comfort In All The Signs That She’s Never Truly Left Me

As published on Thought Catalog. Please check out the post here. I lost my mom on Tuesday, February 28th, 2017 at 4:00am in the morning. My mom and I were so close that we could often feel when the other was in distress. Yet, this morning, I woke up at my own apartment, brushed my … Continue reading I Lost My Mother, But I’m Finding Comfort In All The Signs That She’s Never Truly Left Me