My Mom is Still Attached to My Wedding and I’m Broken About It

I've been my own worst enemy throughout this wedding process ordeal.  Not too long ago, my best friend came to me in the heat of the moment and said, "You're making this harder than it has to be." At the time, I was furious. Why would I be making this harder than it has to … Continue reading My Mom is Still Attached to My Wedding and I’m Broken About It

Things You Shouldn’t Say to a Motherless Bride

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I often feel like those around me hate me. I don’t live up to this “traditional bridal” role, and it often makes me feel worse on top of how shitty I already feel. When my mom was diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer at the age of 55 in 2011, it never occurred to me … Continue reading Things You Shouldn’t Say to a Motherless Bride

Brides Can Have Anxiety About Their Bridal Fittings, Too

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Brides Have Just as Much Anxiety I have my first bridal fitting tonight and I'm pretty anxious. For the past year, anytime it came to doing things for the wedding, I've politely skirted around the issue. When my future mother-in-law would ask, "When are we going to look at bridal gowns together?" I'd kindly smile, … Continue reading Brides Can Have Anxiety About Their Bridal Fittings, Too

My Bridal Shower Sucked, But I Got Through It

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If you want to know what the hardest part of this whole wedding process was, just ask me about my bridal shower. Back in May, I was experiencing one of the hardest weeks of 2018 since my mom died. I can't remember why, but I remember crumbling at the very mention of the word 'wedding.' … Continue reading My Bridal Shower Sucked, But I Got Through It

I’ll Always Love You: 7 Promises I Vow To Keep To My Future Husband

As published on Elite Daily.  The other day, I talked to my best friend about her struggle to write her wedding vows. “I don’t want to say something stupid,” she confessed. “I want to say something other than just ‘I love you.'” Wedding vows can be terrifying. You can go through draft after draft of … Continue reading I’ll Always Love You: 7 Promises I Vow To Keep To My Future Husband