My Mom is Still Attached to My Wedding and I’m Broken About It

I’ve been my own worst enemy throughout this wedding process ordeal.  Not too long ago, my best friend came to me in the heat of the moment and said, “You’re making this harder than it has to be.” At the time, I was furious. Why would I be making this harder than it has to […]

Things You Shouldn’t Say to a Motherless Bride

I often feel like those around me hate me. I don’t live up to this “traditional bridal” role, and it often makes me feel worse on top of how shitty I already feel. When my mom was diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer at the age of 55 in 2011, it never occurred to me […]

Brides Can Have Anxiety About Their Bridal Fittings, Too

Brides Have Just as Much Anxiety I have my first bridal fitting tonight and I’m pretty anxious. For the past year, anytime it came to doing things for the wedding, I’ve politely skirted around the issue. When my future mother-in-law would ask, “When are we going to look at bridal gowns together?” I’d kindly smile, […]

My Bridal Shower Sucked, But I Got Through It

If you want to know what the hardest part of this whole wedding process was, just ask me about my bridal shower. Back in May, I was experiencing one of the hardest weeks of 2018 since my mom died. I can’t remember why, but I remember crumbling at the very mention of the word ‘wedding.’ […]