My Mom is Still Attached to My Wedding and I’m Broken About It

I've been my own worst enemy throughout this wedding process ordeal.  Not too long ago, my best friend came to me in the heat of the moment and said, "You're making this harder than it has to be." At the time, I was furious. Why would I be making this harder than it has to … Continue reading My Mom is Still Attached to My Wedding and I’m Broken About It

Why Saturdays Are the Worst

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Every Saturday morning is met with an irrevocably loud silence. I've always been amused by the way people often describe silence as deafening because it's ultimately the biggest contradiction, we as a society, make. We attribute these emotions and abstract concepts to simple feelings because silence, can actually be one of the most destructive and … Continue reading Why Saturdays Are the Worst

The Reality of What It’s Like to Lose Your Mom

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There’s something to be said about the abstract side of grief. I was reading a book this morning called Mistaken Identity. It’s a story about two families from Indiana whose daughters’ identity were swapped, thus forcing one family to bury who they believed to be their daughter, while their actual child lay comatose, in the … Continue reading The Reality of What It’s Like to Lose Your Mom

Things You Shouldn’t Say to a Motherless Bride

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I often feel like those around me hate me. I don’t live up to this “traditional bridal” role, and it often makes me feel worse on top of how shitty I already feel. When my mom was diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer at the age of 55 in 2011, it never occurred to me … Continue reading Things You Shouldn’t Say to a Motherless Bride